ONE LAST TIME

5th August, 2008:

The strangest thing in life is the life itself…but it is the most beautiful also 
Sem exams had been over for long & the next sem was still a while to begin. We all friends were missing each other, so we decided to visit college to deposit the fee & all. Our hostler friends were also to come. Me, sushil, sachin & bhawna were all localites & my other hostler frnds, sandeep, rahul, shikha & deepika were to visit from different places. They had another friend of their from our college & deepikas’ cousin with them.
I was very happy in particular coz there was someone I wanted to see in particular ;) …Yes it was that special feeling…wat was it…I don’t know…was it love…perhaps…I don’t know..but it was qite a while we had met.
We all were waiting in a room for the updates on hostel allotments. Bhawna said that I have something to tell you. My other friends asked what was it but she said it was only for me…quite strange…difficult to guess.
Anyways, time went on & we were all enjoying. Then I saw a friend of mine outside the room, Nishant & I went to see him. As I went out bhawna followed me.
I asked,”yea, what was that?” She said you still like deepika? I said why do you ask? I do…I still do. She said you have to forget her. I was startled. I said what rubbish… why would I do that. She said you have to, perhaps she has found someone… still unable to get what I heard… I asked her who was it?... she said I dunno… I dont’ know exactly… probably someone from Chandigarh itself… I was smiling… She said why are you laughing? I said I can do nothing more. She tried to console me… she said I know “ghar jakar royega”. I said “rounga nahin, ye promise raha”. She had given me the sweetest feeling I would have ever had… I wont cry for sure. She said “waise bhi ye sab bekar ke kaam hai”. I said yes & went away to see nishant…
He what were you talking with her? I said nothing as such, just normal hi-hello. Then we began talking. But my mind was otherwise…was she joking… or was she serious… It can never happen… she wont do that to me.

Trust me…that was the strangest feeling I ever had till date, mind still unaware about what was happening & heart still unable to believe what had happened. I wanted to cry, eyes overruled my wish, I wanted to laugh, lips denied… moving was as difficult as standing & being silent was as difficult as speaking…

I could not go back to my friends… I was with nishant only… I wanted to be with him only. After sometime, sachin called ,me& said they were going to hostel… but I refused & said nishant had some work to do with me. They all left without me.
Me, nishant & his friend sat at the college entrance. It started to drizzle suddenly… perhaps heavens were weeping on my part… only perhaps. I said nishant that I wanted to sleep… sleep in the rain. He said are you mad? I said perhaps…& lied down on a bike in the rain. He stood besides me. I talked with him… talked emotions… talked all the rubbish in the world… & he too somehow enjoyed it. Suddenly my heart made a wish, I wanted to go home… I SMSed all that I am leaving… message came from the boys hostel,”OK..bubyee”… deepika & bhawna messaged “wait for 5 min” I made an excuse…”mom called, have to leave” Message came back “we are coming in 5 min, plz wait” I said OK.
10 min past I asked where are you…when they didn’t come… waiting seemed the most difficult thing for my heart which withered away. Flowers seemed wilted, clouds weren’t as pleasant & rain drops seemd to burn my skin.
Then came a phone call… it said “Deepika calling” I picked it… her voice was still as sweet as ever… It was the only thing that pleased me at that time & hurted me even more. She said I am getting bored please come to girl’s hostel. I persuaded nishant to drop me there and pick me up after sometime.
Within 5 minutes I was at the hostel. I found only deepika & her unknown friend there. After regular hi-hello, she asked what did bhawna told you? I was startled… but perhaps I knew somehow that it was about to come. I said nothing. She said she din tell you anything….he eyes faced mne…still, I said NO firmly. She said she din tell you anything about Parv? about my BF? Blood vessels shrunk inside me… blood pressure went high…words refused to come and skin denied any feel…I said I din knew the name… she said OK… but I am committed. I said how much has it been? She said 20 days… I wanted to tell you… but I could not.
You know what I did then? I pretended a missed call from nishant… I said he nishant is calling and I left…silently… as peacefully as I could… no one spoke…nor the trees and neither the wind…. Thunderstorms went silent n so did my heart 
I do not wish to write what happened in the next 3 days….it is impossible for me

A love story had an end here…. I have heard a myth somewhere…..




“TRUE LOVE STORIES NEVER HAVE AN ENDING”

- Vipin Raina
(all names have been changed)